Rules to living?

Rules to living?

Laying on this bed

Waiting to go sleep

Baby snoring in deep sleep

Night

Only time to myself

Tired I am

Eyes burning but I

Write.

I write on here instead because

Smaller things sometimes become bigger things.

And they become important

Whereas before they wasn’t.

When you read something where someone expects people to act as if they were living in the bc ages.

I digress eyes puffy tired 😴

 

All with flaws

All with flaws

Do you know that your flaws

Could be your best feature.

That other people may be insecure with

Themselves in a different way.

So pointing out that you have a difference defines them and not you.

Do you know that standing out is better than blending in.

Being a teenager it’s hard to overstand this.

But don’t worry you will soon see what I can see from here.

It’s annoying to people when you absolutely love your flaws if you believe you have any.

Just being yourself is the biggest confidence that anyone can have.

Bullys have no place if you take the target from them.

Today my flaws don’t define me

It’s just an extra stepping stone.

What do we look for in love

What do we look for in love

They asked me what do I look for in love?

I answered to be 15 again to not meet him at Mcdonalds again to not give him

My cherry again.

To look back and climb into a time machine.

To not think that he and us was the definition of love.

What and how do you define love?

I wish my body wouldn’t go all gooey

Like I am drunk.

But you see to me that was love,  and for the 8 years after it was. I mean nothing else made me feel all kinds of things.

We connected spiritually eventually and it felt all ludicrous this was not by purpose.

Not sure what purpose

It happened.

He was like a young boy that

Turned into a man.

He didn’t know his self worth but neither did I.

Long story cut short.

How would I define love.

I guess we touch hands like the aliens on star trek and Intwine our electrons

Connect like satalight dishes.

You kno nothing can define it with words or visions

It should define itself

And when it comes.

No expectations of the passed

Should be presented.

The answer is no with closed doors

The answer is no with closed doors

Some answers are a no,

Or you are treated differently to how the person would treat others.

Sometimes you don’t fit in with the criteria.

What is the criteria?

They do not want to be in the same situation as you or dress like you.

Talk over you ask someone else questions of what you have the answers to. Pooh you already helped them out with the situation.

You are wired.

Is she weird? Is she OK? What is she into? Why she single? Weird, Artist weird. Think for herself weird. Frightened weird.

Is she frightened?

I feel sorry for her single mother, I could not be like her, I mean does she no the father to her child?

Maybe we could pray for her instead of ring her or physically help her.

Nope.

(to her face)

You are doing sooo well, being a single mother a full black single mother. I mean how did you do it? I could not do what you are doing. When will you work? Oh no don’t worry about it you probably don’t want to work.

(back to me)

I’m no mind reader but I kinda get feelings that talk my language I mean is it sooo awkward for people to be straight up instead of trying to be tooo nice it ends up being condescending. Like ooowwereeree uno you could imagine that sound all over exaggeration and squeaky. 💩 it’s OK I quite understand, but perhaps people don’t understand what they don’t understand but still perceive and treat people with ulterior motives. Like why she got that none designer bag. I am like I am working sooo hard that maybe I won’t have to buy one of those bags someone somewhere would gift it to me. The way I dress is not me I’m cacooning like a butterfly. The child thing ask him how he is doing, if he is happy if mummy is happy young children don’t lie much. Especially the real things in life. No sugar coated candy.  This is a rant, but people really put on you situations that don’t help you to change in growth at all. Material things and wants are soooo temporary some people assume that you are doing well by the car you drive and the company you have. The reality of deep conversations need to be back. By demand. I write because somone will read and hopefully we can relate. I read blogs because I get to celebrate with people I have not met and I can relate. X

Fashionistadesirable

Fashionistadesirable

Weird title but most things are just created and given names and understandings, I can imagine nothing or no one having a name so someone somewhere gave something a name. Okayyy then so I am looking at my dress sense and um like

“you ain’t helping me.” Said the girl to her clothes.

Im 5ft1 curvey but jeez them jeans love to make a sausage out of meh (Nottingham lang). Yes I am over jeans. I just want to wear skirts and dresses I feel they flatter my figure and make me feel desirable to myself. Has anyone else got problems with wearing jeans?.

I am at a stage where the whole transformation on style is needed.

And they laugh

And they laugh

Met a woman who works as a carer on the tram the other day. She had two young women caring for one of them had a beautiful contagious laugh, to some people they would think it’s annoying. To me it’s the most beautiful situation to be in. I cought the laugh and joined in. Sometimes you forget to smile to laugh and this reminded me about life. I am sure that I mentioned these people before in a post if I have they make an impact on me every time I see them.

Nothing in life is free but it’s accessible.

I won’t tell my child that.

The world owes him nothing

But he owes the word to himself.

Everything is brought even if it’s not by currency its by time.

Nothing is free this word needs to be dissolved. Free equates to 0.

You receive something free because you are poor, it’s not free because you had to be poor in order to recive.

Free 30 hours child care well the posters need changing because that ain’t free.

Free food but you had to travel to recive and your travel expenses are not covered.

Stop throwing free around the word has no substance, don’t expect anything for free sometimes there is a consequence don’t forget to ask.