Love questions

Love questions

Love who the hell are
You

Like really why you so
Popular like?
Love
Love is it a myth or
Reality
Is it something or someone?

Love let’s sit down and talk for a while.

I think love got mixed up with Oragasmic short circuits.

I mean that feeling feels quite electrifying.

I guess it makes a better connection
When love is wired up.

You see love don’t always come from
The stuff you stick in the toaster.

I believe it comes from the inner
Place where you connect none
Physically.

They would say it’s a more spiritual thing.

So love why you always dropping out of peoples mouths and do they no
The difference between love and lust?
Not ust because ust is a long way from dropping the l In lust.

Love romantically and love caringly gets a slap on both sides of the face. Some desire you to love them like it’s a weakness and some want you to love them like no other then throw the same love back in your face.

They don’t want to here you love coz you care oh no.

So love please can we work something out.

The breaking point

The breaking point

It’s pointing at you

It’s looking at you

Your mind becomes a playground

Too many things to experience

Your eyes prance stomach laugh

But it’s pointing at you

That moment when you.

Remind yourself to look

Straight in the eyes of the breaking point.

Tears stroll down to your face

Like a child you feel

Lost you feel

Confused you feel.

This is just a reminder that

You have come so far

Come from the roots of the woods.

You remember the lakes that used to run aside from where you once where.

The swing and the laughter.

Until you absorbed the world like

A sponge that had been disregarded as waste.

Realisationing

Realisationing

I have come to or coming to some sort of realisationing,  that you can’t force an understanding upon  somone if they are not willing to. Open their  eyes and ears to see that differences do exist. And occur in our reality and that not everyone will understand.  What they can see on their level of understanding. I have had arguments with people simply because they seem to force the reality of their own that has no progress to change in this environment that we are living in and especially mine. Then I try to understand for why am I getting frustrated when I already no what I do and it’s OK just for me to keep my mouth shut and listen. Erm well I find it hard to. It’s like telling your stomach that you have not eaten crap food and no it will not hurt ur stomach at all! In denial of the fact that no matter how much we try to prevent the world from crumbling and stop people from hurting dying and killing no matter how much we pray or give money. We are not incontrol. Maybe incontrol of a percentage just of,  because we are not accepting that our thoughts are our reality. I have some kind of trying to reason that if we are able to manifest our reality then why are so many of us externalised in thought instead of internalised. This is because we are taught from a young age how to externalise inorder to recive such as share and be kind put people first. Not saying be inhumane but we are not taught in the westernised world that we need to internalise and understand self before other people. Like religion alot of it is outsourcing our prayers and idolising other humans this idolising is soooo Ancient and I can’t say too wrongs I am just trying to get an understanding without the end result being that. I need saving or read the Holy book. I offend alot of people with me not conforming and being one of them but I can’t understand where they are coming from.

Natural spiritual journeys

Natural spiritual journeys

Hmm I guess this question is not a wired one of todays happenings and everyone, everything has its own reasoning behind what they do and believe in. It’s not extremely wrong or right as long as no one is being hurt in expense of others. So my nature is Empathetic it’s been this way from as far as I can remember I guess the realisation was when I wept real tears in my sleep literally woke up with tears in my eyes on my cheeks and confusion in my heart. That morning my family had found out a dear family friend has passed away. I was really young at this point. A lot of other situations acured some I can’t pin point. But I definitely take on peoples energy and try to help them. Then I realise that they are using me to take my energy and leave. Which has been pretty obvious come to think of it. I’d get a random phone call from somone I have not spoken to in ages and then we’d talk about how they are feeling. Then I don’t hear from them. Strange it is and makes me feel rejected and used unwanted. This could be from almost any one. And I question myself and ended up in a deep depression for ages. I was unable to work as I got sacked I failed university. I was taking on tooo many problems and none of them were my personal self but others. If I understood this properly I’d of tried to find a way to harness my energy and focus on myself. I was able to connect directly to whom I wanted to. No powers used here but intuition unless you call this a power. All this was like 10 years ago. I tried to go to church tried seeking into religion, as soon as I step in I could feel peoples vybz. I remember going to a Church in Birmingham I took the courage to go. It felt overwhelming and somewhat uplifting I wept, the energy was exploding outwards. I only went once, it was nice but too much. I ended up moving back to Nottingham with great regret as I was growing up in Birmingham despite still having my energy pulled out of me. I just didn’t get how to hold back helping others and not myself. I don’t think anyone realised what they were doing to me. I felt attacked spiritually like all these thoughts were just piled on top of me and I couldn’t breath I could just see myself trying to escape and get out. I attracted more stress for myself narrsasistic relationships, friendships soo much falseness. Felt like I was being tested for something but it all didn’t make sense. My feelings didn’t matter to the hurting. Besides everyone hurting I became disencitised and detached to my own needs of comfort and help. I suppressed it sooo compactly and tight I was able to listen and tried to call for help back but it was not listened to much. So my OKs where a false ok. It always felt like something was wrong with me. I started complaining about most things and people. I disliked this in me. The moment anyone really asked if I was OK felt toooo much like “they can see me, I am not invisible” but I couldn’t let them know how I felt I cried but felt too exposed to actually say how I felt. It felt like they were trying to steal energy from me. So I became enclose and overprotective. I was like if no one was going to protect me then I will. I am my baby myself, love myself. I can’t do what I can’t handle. This mind set got me into little arguments. It had to. To many people of all types no matter where got away with treating me a certain way. I wasn’t having any of this. No more no more no matter who it was. I may be able to heal to an extent but I was unable to move away from what was just pushed out onto me ie people problems.