The answer is no with closed doors

The answer is no with closed doors

Some answers are a no,

Or you are treated differently to how the person would treat others.

Sometimes you don’t fit in with the criteria.

What is the criteria?

They do not want to be in the same situation as you or dress like you.

Talk over you ask someone else questions of what you have the answers to. Pooh you already helped them out with the situation.

You are wired.

Is she weird? Is she OK? What is she into? Why she single? Weird, Artist weird. Think for herself weird. Frightened weird.

Is she frightened?

I feel sorry for her single mother, I could not be like her, I mean does she no the father to her child?

Maybe we could pray for her instead of ring her or physically help her.

Nope.

(to her face)

You are doing sooo well, being a single mother a full black single mother. I mean how did you do it? I could not do what you are doing. When will you work? Oh no don’t worry about it you probably don’t want to work.

(back to me)

I’m no mind reader but I kinda get feelings that talk my language I mean is it sooo awkward for people to be straight up instead of trying to be tooo nice it ends up being condescending. Like ooowwereeree uno you could imagine that sound all over exaggeration and squeaky. 💩 it’s OK I quite understand, but perhaps people don’t understand what they don’t understand but still perceive and treat people with ulterior motives. Like why she got that none designer bag. I am like I am working sooo hard that maybe I won’t have to buy one of those bags someone somewhere would gift it to me. The way I dress is not me I’m cacooning like a butterfly. The child thing ask him how he is doing, if he is happy if mummy is happy young children don’t lie much. Especially the real things in life. No sugar coated candy.  This is a rant, but people really put on you situations that don’t help you to change in growth at all. Material things and wants are soooo temporary some people assume that you are doing well by the car you drive and the company you have. The reality of deep conversations need to be back. By demand. I write because somone will read and hopefully we can relate. I read blogs because I get to celebrate with people I have not met and I can relate. X

Love questions

Love questions

Love who the hell are
You

Like really why you so
Popular like?
Love
Love is it a myth or
Reality
Is it something or someone?

Love let’s sit down and talk for a while.

I think love got mixed up with Oragasmic short circuits.

I mean that feeling feels quite electrifying.

I guess it makes a better connection
When love is wired up.

You see love don’t always come from
The stuff you stick in the toaster.

I believe it comes from the inner
Place where you connect none
Physically.

They would say it’s a more spiritual thing.

So love why you always dropping out of peoples mouths and do they no
The difference between love and lust?
Not ust because ust is a long way from dropping the l In lust.

Love romantically and love caringly gets a slap on both sides of the face. Some desire you to love them like it’s a weakness and some want you to love them like no other then throw the same love back in your face.

They don’t want to here you love coz you care oh no.

So love please can we work something out.

We don’t actually no

We don’t actually no

Don’t you ever just think that we don’t really know exactly what or why we put our energy into some things that actually result to the thin air of oops I don’t actually no the reason to why I did that, said that why am I are we here…. Erm okay. I sometimes get this feeling like I have syked myself up extremely high it could be excitement adrenaline or anxiety adrenaline but somehow for some reason, all of the fuss resulted in a somewhat disappointing stop. Like why am I so anxious it wasn’t that bad or why so anxious when it turned out to not be what I was expecting. Like all of that energy and sugar just burnt out by adrenaline and over thinking I mean nothing wrong with it. I guess this could just be a natural way to find rationality in a situation. I am sitting in Nottingham Broadmarsh shopping centre trying to find a reason. Well, my son is at nursery, I have some me time, they have WiFi and oh its cold outside. And they are playing 3T and other 90s R’n’B like seriously. Woiii chunes childhood memories nostalgia yup

she wants to fall in love ey

she wants to fall in love ey

She said

shush! gosh
I really want to fall in love
I want to
be squeezed that tight
 I kinda loose my breath
Then he lets me go
Repeatedly holding me
Let my second lips start to talk
they can’t wait to talk
and laugh and cackle
but…
hmm
I can’t do it right now
I can barely take this.
And he will just hold me right?
Or is it all in my head that he would really
Want to talk deeper but without words
let his second
 mind communicate
or should I just become all  cold
I mean I get all scared and
tell them lips to shut
the fuck up
like they get me in trouble
feel like regurgitating at the
waist line when, I see him
um like a volcano ready to
erupt
like a fizzy bottle of pop
been all shook up
like Elvis Presley