Lil boy apologies

Lil boy apologies

He said heĀ  was sorry

Sorry for being upset crying

Having tears racing down his face.

He’s so sorry that he wasn’t as strong as a super hero.

I said son, tears allow you to have strength, because without it superheroes won’t be able to smile.

Each smile saves the day. Strength is not shown only by muscle but the ability to cry and understand that it’s OK.

 

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2017

2017

2017

The year I lost my nana

Felt what fear, loss and love really felt like.

Faced my nan and held her hands tight.

But, for the first time she couldn’t hear me right.

Didn’t see her smile or feel her breathing.

Saw death for the first time.

Was my nana laying there.

No more work for you to do nana

You can lay there and rest now,

No more pain nana

It’s strange to me to not hear your voice.

Right now it’s but apart of my imagination.

I knew I’d be facing this reality one day. Just didn’t kno how much pain really feels.

I used to miss people but that now seems like a joke to me coz I can still see those people but I can never see you again.

The day you passed away I walked into your house and all I could smell was you. X

 

 

Darkness is better than the light

Darkness is better than the light

They say darkness is a bad place

A sad place

A mad place

The creepy place

The evil place

What if you turned it upside down.

I say the light is a strange place

An open space

The mad place

A sad place

A creepy place.

It’s a place where all is aware.

As of the darkness it’s where I found myself. In the state of realisation and silence no one around me but my

Thoughts grew in abundance.

Trying to climb out of stretch out of reach of jump out of.

The darkness.

Which in the end was but a reflection of myself that I was taught was bad.

Sometimes you seek self In unfamiliar ways.

Your light may be found in the darkness. Where your darkness may be found within the light.

 

She not God

She not God

Girl cries aloud.

Busy shopping centre

I am not God!

Can’t change this world.

Feed the homeless

Cradle the hopeless

Clean streets of garbage,

Save the sick. Nobody lives for ever.

She can’t change the way things are,

She not God, but she feels what she sees.

She the mother not cradled her child yet

But sees a whole world in front of her that needs to be held.

Did I not cover up

Did I not cover up

Covering up things with other things

Hoping that other thing will be the thing to heal the other thing.

Like a band-aid or a plaster. You see a cut gets covered , I know it’s for health reasons, but some see it as out of mind out of sight. So we start to cover more stuff, with stuff to make the reality of something else feel numb.

Like pain we take painkillers, paracetamol and others. No one talks about the reason for the pain. It’s just go get a painkiller and that’s that. What happend to, let’s talk, why are you in pain? I am no doctor but my time could be apart of you healing. Like do you really need a painkiller or is it easier for me to say it and dismiss convo.

What happend to getting to the root of the problem. The world too quick to find the outcome that we forget the process needed to arrive to the outcome.

Some use drugs and drink to cover up the fact that we have to face reality every day. Is reality really that bad or is it our expectations are a lie that we have been taught to believe in. And that pain really does hurt like hell. It’s the reality in it not being a reality in the world that hurts. We don’t talk about hurt because it’s too real to notice that we are hurting so we hurt others to the point of it becoming normal. Hurt is normal and being happy is weird. Accepting life for what it is makes others weary of you.

 

I digress will return reached a blockage and not afraid to

All with flaws

All with flaws

Do you know that your flaws

Could be your best feature.

That other people may be insecure with

Themselves in a different way.

So pointing out that you have a difference defines them and not you.

Do you know that standing out is better than blending in.

Being a teenager it’s hard to overstand this.

But don’t worry you will soon see what I can see from here.

It’s annoying to people when you absolutely love your flaws if you believe you have any.

Just being yourself is the biggest confidence that anyone can have.

Bullys have no place if you take the target from them.

Today my flaws don’t define me

It’s just an extra stepping stone.