I am beginning to think that deja vu has a taste a sound a texture and ambience. It’s pretty crazy because I had them mini calm cooling flash back feelings. Then I was like ooo noooo. All this is too myself but can anyone recall these strange feelings where you think you could take a little control over this situation?
I have come to or coming to some sort of realisationing, that you can’t force an understanding upon somone if they are not willing to. Open their eyes and ears to see that differences do exist. And occur in our reality and that not everyone will understand. What they can see on their level of understanding. I have had arguments with people simply because they seem to force the reality of their own that has no progress to change in this environment that we are living in and especially mine. Then I try to understand for why am I getting frustrated when I already no what I do and it’s OK just for me to keep my mouth shut and listen. Erm well I find it hard to. It’s like telling your stomach that you have not eaten crap food and no it will not hurt ur stomach at all! In denial of the fact that no matter how much we try to prevent the world from crumbling and stop people from hurting dying and killing no matter how much we pray or give money. We are not incontrol. Maybe incontrol of a percentage just of, because we are not accepting that our thoughts are our reality. I have some kind of trying to reason that if we are able to manifest our reality then why are so many of us externalised in thought instead of internalised. This is because we are taught from a young age how to externalise inorder to recive such as share and be kind put people first. Not saying be inhumane but we are not taught in the westernised world that we need to internalise and understand self before other people. Like religion alot of it is outsourcing our prayers and idolising other humans this idolising is soooo Ancient and I can’t say too wrongs I am just trying to get an understanding without the end result being that. I need saving or read the Holy book. I offend alot of people with me not conforming and being one of them but I can’t understand where they are coming from.
May fall for you
May fall asleep
May hold onto you
May let go of you
May run away
She said to him
Answering his lengthy questions.
I wonder sometimes
in my head
what would happen
if I regurgitated
the impulse reactive thoughts
that speak loudly in my head
and then I realise how rude it
feels for someone else to do this
but then how offensive it is
when someone else feels offended when I do so
but then what if I spat words out
as quickly as I try to compliment
people and spread that good feeling
Nothing feels too good or looks too good
what If me spitting out thoughts as soon
as they enter my mind ain’t always a bad thing
like what if?
I know it would help my mind from impulse thoughts
and detox my brain so my mind can sleep
or I could just see the world through my eyes
and like wipe clean the lens
that is fogged over by rage
stress trying to get through a net with smaller holes
simply because no one wants to hear
Someone should hear that I mean
if it’s them…
sometimes we say best
by saying nothing they say.
Nope we say it best when we get it out
and minds empty of thoughts
that pollute your
and make you sick